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It's Time to Say Goodbye

By Tracy
For almost 20 years, I've been reviewing books for my own site and others. I reviewed for Amazon Vine for a while and did some reviews in Romantic Times. It's been a long road, and I need to be honest with myself. It's been a while since I've really loved reading. Most of the time now, it feels like a chore. That's not a good thing. 

Last night, I had the worst dream ever. An old family friend showed up to take my mom and I to Montreal. The problem is this old family friend died of breast cancer nearing 25 years ago. My mom was in the wandering stages of Alzheimer's, and that was a hard stage. She panicked in stores, yet in my dream, our family friend dropped us off at Christmas Tree Store (a store my mom loved), and we each were able to pick out $50 worth of stuff. 

As Alzheimer's progressed, my mom was also notorious for wanting everything she saw. She filled a cart with garbage she didn't need, but the manager hugged me, said he knows what it's like, and that I could just ditch what wasn't wanted at the register. Finally at the register, my mom panicked, as was common, and wanted to leave the store. I told her to stay, she didn't listen, and in my dream, she was splattered by a truck in the parking lot. The manager told me I had to go outside and ID what was left. 

It was a horrifically vivid dream. I woke up shaking. I've cried several times today as I can't get that image out of my head. I do blame the show Zomboat for putting the gory images in my head. With all of this, I realize I'm done. I have to start focusing on myself for a change. 

Books don't really need my attention, and I've never made a penny off this site anyway as I refuse to advertise as heavily as others. I used to be in it for the passion of reading, but I'm just not passionate about it anymore. Given that. I am going to walk away. I've appreciated long-time and new supporters, but it's time to focus on me for a change and what I want and need. 

I will finish up pending reviews as time allows and post them to Amazon instead.

Thank you and happy reading. 

As an after note, you may have heard that Vermont was hit incredibly hard by 8 inches of rain in one day and a lot of the cities and towns across the state were ravaged by floods, some mudslides, and a tornado. Donations to the Red Cross and towns like Barre, Queechee, Ludlow, Montpelier, and Waterbury are all appreciated as many people were outside of flood zones, so insurance will not cover anything. https://vermontcf.org/our-impact/programs-and-funds/vt-flood-response/

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